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[11 Jun 2004|10:23pm]
I'm really missing Zac. He'll be here on Sunday... It's already Saturday where he is right now, so I guess that would make the time go by a little faster.

School is starting to stress me out. A lot. I fell back on my grades more than I should have because of the traveling I've been doing with Zac. I haven't failed anything, but my grades still aren't good enough to let me keep the honors that I have. My summer vacation was supposed to start on May 26th, but I have decided to take a three week summer course that started on Monday. ::sigh:: Atleast it will be over by the time the tour starts.

But passing this summer course is putting me in a lot of stress. I wouldn't consider myself a perfectionist, but I like things done right. I have next to no idea what's going on in school. I can't even decide on a major that fits me. Zac said in an interview almost a year ago, "My girlfriend is in college and she still doesn't know what she wants to do with her life." Almost a year later, this is still true.

I want to marry Zac. There's no way I could have a job of my own and follow my own dreams when all I want is to be with him... all the time.

I'm so confused. Am I taking college for granted? Or am I really there for nothing? Why am I striving? I don't know what I want.

Zac would probably yell at me if he saw this (which I'm sure he will), but I've seriously been considering leaving college. It's too stressful on me and I'm there for no reason. I've been studying and studying and studying things that I don't care about. I've been loosing sleep. I haven't been eating right. I cried for hours last night just because I'm so lost.

Like I said, I'm striving for nothing. Sometimes I feel like I'm in college just for the hell of it.

I want to be with Zac so bad. I can't wait to spend the whole summer with him. Well, most of the summer... if I decide to take this college course.

I just can't wait to see Zac on Sunday. He'll keep me sane.
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Back in Ohio... [05 Jun 2004|11:09pm]
We're in Canton, Ohio right now. I'm backstage. The guys are just about to finish up a show.

They got to get a little more sleep then they have been getting lately, so that was good. They're more awake for their show.

Have I ever mentioned how much I love Zac? When we were in Cleveland last week, the guys did a radio interview before their show. The DJ asked about their relationship status. I was listening to the interview on the radio in another room, and Zac made me laugh when he said he was "happily girlfriended". =) We try not to be to open about our relationship, but then again, we also try to be honest about it. But he did say that he was happy and that I am a beautiful, amazing person and he couldn't ask for anything better. That makes me feel extremely good. I'm so in love with him and I couldn't ask for anything better, either.

Earlier today in the hotel room, it was the sweetest thing. Zac and Isaac were getting dressed and prepared for their show. I was already dressed, so I was just laying on my bed. Zac comes in the room, curls up next to me, and lays his head down on my chest. It was picture perfect. He told me in loved me and we spoke in whispers. I love when we do that. We talked about a lot in the little spare time that we had. We talked about how happy we were, how excited he was to be on tour again, how excited I was to be touring with him again... Every minute I spend talking to him is romantic and magical. I love him. I just simply love him.
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[02 Jun 2004|08:44pm]
We are in Buffalo, NY right now. The guys are playing another promo show. Luckily, we get to go back to the apartment tonight and tomorrow, before heading to the last promo show in Canton, OH on Saturday.

I hope Ike's doing alright. I didn't want to type about this a lot the other day cause Ike was in the room... but I guess that doesn't matter, because she probably reads this, anyway. On Monday night, he came storming back in our hotel room (Isaac, Zac, and I share our hotel rooms during the tour), almost in tears. He looked really angry and frustrated. Zac tried to ask him what was wrong, but he told him to go away.

I just read his journal and it seems that maybe the fans were getting a little out of hand... but I still don't know the whole story.

I just can't wait for this last promo show to be over. The guys need rest insanely bad. I've never seen them this exhausted or frustrated before.
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[01 Jun 2004|09:06pm]
The guys didn't have a show to play tonight. I'm glad. They finally pretty much got a day off. Zac has literally been sleeping all day. He woke up to shower and eat dinner with me. We may go out much later tonight, once he's rested up and energized if he wants to.

Isaac is still in a not-so-great mood, but he has also been sleeping in. I hope he cheers up. I think rest is what he needs. Every little thing that goes on upsets him somehow. I spend so much time around him, I can't help but worry about him, too.

Well, I'm going to go lay down with Zac until he decides to get up. I love to watch him sleep. =)
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[31 May 2004|11:35am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Zac, Isaac, and Taylor played a great show in New York last night. We're in a hotel Cleveland right now, getting ready to leave for another show. The guys barely got any sleep last night. I feel bad that they can't sleep. I like to see them energized for their shows. They have tomorrow off, but another show on Wednesday. I'd really like to spend some time with Zac, but I'd like him to get some sleep more. Maybe we can spend the whole day tomorrow sleeping in at the hotel.

Zac is in the shower right now. Isaac is still fixing his hair (he has to have his mohawk just right), and Taylor and Natalie just went to Starbucks. I'm here watching Ezra, paddling around the hotel room. He's such an adorable baby.

Well, I guess I should get ready, too. We're going to eat and then it's off to another show.

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Hi everyone [30 May 2004|07:50pm]
This is my first LJ entry. My boyfriend just got one and I thought they were a neat idea.

I'm in New York right now with my boyfriend and his brothers. I'm backstage at their concert right now. They're about to go and perform soon.

I just finished up college, so I'll be spending the rest of the summer traveling with my boyfriend. It's always an adventure with them. Rarely ever a dull moment.

Hopefully life will get a little exciting. Things are just kicking off again for me.

I think I'm going to go hang out with my best friend Natalie now.

Hopefully I'll have something more exciting to post tomorrow.
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